I’ve been putting off writing this post for a while, knowing eventually I was going to need to put my reasoning into words as to why I’ve decided to leave this blog behind and move onto a new space. This isn’t going to be an easy post to write, since I’m not feeling entirely coherent about it all just yet. Its more of a feeling than a set of words, but here we go.
Did you know that I use to have a blog before starting Faring Well? It was super tiny, and just a little passion project I began after I had been vegan for a few months – back in 2012. It was called Made to Create and its still up. I go back to it every so often to read my tiny blurbs and see the food I was experimenting with back in those days. I definitely don’t go back for the iPhone photography, I’ll say that much. However, every stage is a beautiful one and it is really neat sometimes to visually see your own growth.
When I began Faring Well it was after taking a year break from contributing to Made to Create in any way. During this year I was learning how to make blogging a full time business, it was something I’d heard of others doing, and would dream about getting to photograph, write, and share with others while I worked as a server at a restaurant. When Scott and I moved on a whim to Denver, Colorado, Scott told me to take the opportunity to start anew – no more serving in restaurants. He had faith in my passion to make and share plant based food with others, and supported us through an amazing job opportunity that came his way a few weeks after living in our new city.
It was through his love and belief in me that I published my first post here, and have been able to grow these few pixels of the internet into a job I didn’t know was even possible at the time. Aside from Scott’s belief, it’s been through your support and camaraderie here over the years that has kept the fire alive in me. I feel really lucky to have been able to share all of the stories and recipes that I have here with you, and for all of our discussions in the comments section (my favorite part of it all). I’m so grateful when I hear how recipes here have effected others’ lifestyles, relationships with food, and happiness. I’ve teared up plenty of times uniting with you through different life celebrations and struggles. I take none of this for granted, and I hope you know how special and vastly important you all have been to me here.
What went awry? I’m sure you’re wondering why I would leave such a special place behind, and it starts behind the scenes. When we moved to Denver almost 4 years ago, and I began Faring Well, my health was taking a dive. I write about my entire health story on my new site, so I’ll spare repeating the details here. I was unable to eat but a very specific few foods, and therefore began this site creating recipes I thought others would enjoy – but not ones I would necessarily enjoy myself. Sometimes I made recipes that sounded good to me, other times they came from inspiration through other mediums that told me what was popular and interesting at the time. I felt disconnected from the food I was creating, but so alive in the creative process and writing that I kept going. This went on for two and a half years. Only last summer was I able to receive a small amount of healing that allowed me to rediscover food again. I tried to be more authentic in this space, but the standards and habits had been formed. I had built myself into what felt like a well oiled blogging machine, and eventually felt so detached from what I was doing, I had to take a break.
This realization happened last January, when the attention my health was demanding was increasing too. I decided to finish up my sponsored work and take a break. Beginning in March I completely detached myself from the blogging realm, social media, etc. I focused on my health, and listening to my own voice. What was I truly passionate about, what did I see myself being able to contribute to the world, what would be beneficial for others while also being true to me? How could I take what I had learned from my experience here on Faring Well to make sure I didn’t repeat it again?
It took a few months before I was able to think about what I would do. These months were hard. I love working on something, and not having a project or any kind of work was pretty frustrating. However, this pain was needed. It forced me to listen to myself, and not all that I had to say to “me” was easy to hear. I was confronted with my fears, insecurities, things I loved about my passions, and aspects of these same passions that drove me up the wall. I would commit to an idea and shun it in the same week. Back and forth, everything on my mind at once, nothing on my mind at all, it was dizzying. In the end I came out with a sense of confidence in who I truly was that still feels very fragile, if I’m to be honest. There are a lot of patterns to be broken, and new ones to be formed. But the only way to move forward is to take the steps set in front of me. I’ll look back one day on this process and see the bigger picture, but for now I’m living in it and feeling my way through.
And I felt my way through to a new website. A place where I can start from the beginning with new intentions. To be real, honest, open, and without limits when it comes to what I share. I love plant based living, I love creating recipes, but I also love other aspects of my lifestyle too. Like storing things in eye catching, sustainable ways. Weekly trips to the farmers market, produce prep, and how to store everything. I love simple eating, I love making people feel empowered in the kitchen to make their own decisions, and I love sharing things I find beautiful and life giving – such as stories and travel and marriage. I wanted to create a space where I wanted to hang out at, even if no one else ever came. And I also wanted to think of new ways to share and benefit others, and these will come soon through my new site too.
I trimmed things down a bit for my own headspace. No more Facebook or Pinterest, only Instagram and my website. I’ll be without a posting schedule, sharing when inspirations strike, and pausing when natural lulls come about. I’m leaving behind the well-oiled machine, and breathing some natural ebbs and flows into the new space. I know this will not only benefit me and my creativity, but it will nurture my passion, and in the end benefit others (you) the most.
And now, what will happen to this blog and all of its recipes? I’ve paid for it’s hosting through March of next year, but am afraid that unless a genuinely decent free hosting option comes to my attention, it will be taken down after that point. I will, however, be bringing over a handful of my favorite recipes to the new site (with a few updates occasionally, I’m sure) as we make and enjoy them naturally over the course of time. I’m considering making a pdf of the site for any die-hard Faring Well fans who ask for a copy, so let me know your thoughts on this – I wish I had a more permanent solution for you – but this is where I am at with it currently.
Thank you from the depths of my heart for being here and cultivating such a special community with me on these pages of Faring Well. Your support, friendship, and trust has meant everything. I hope we can continue to inspire one another and share life together over on my new website from here on out – I’m really excited for everything to come. Are you ready?! See you over on Jessie May. xx